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[neverjoinyou]

Luke chews on his lip for a moment.

"You're gonna hate this answer," he says helpfully, "but I think... I think all that is okay." He raises a hand. "I don't mean that what happened is okay, or that it's fun to feel those things. But I think... these are normal things to feel given... everything. Sometimes you really just have to feel stuff and there's nothing to do about it in the moment except feel it."

[tetractys]

"I DO HATE THAT ANSWER."

feeling bad? its bad. he'd like that to stop.

[neverjoinyou]

"I'm not saying you have to go sit in a corner and feel awful all the time," he says, trying to be gentle though he knows that he'd also hate what he's saying. "But it's one of those things I think you never learned. Like healing a body part. It takes time."

[tetractys]

"TIME IS A PRISON!"

He's very adamant about this but it's not actually an argument.

[neverjoinyou]

"Sometimes," Luke agrees affably, because that's his chief weapon against Bill's adamance. "But maybe you should take some ownership. Make this into what you need it to be."

[tetractys]

"UGH, YEAH, I KNOW, I'M GOING TO GROW AS A PERSON I GUESS.

BUT, JEEZ, I GOT THE POINT ALREADY! I'M OVER THIS, LET'S MOVE ON!"

Emotions don't work like that, Bill.

[neverjoinyou]

Bill is not over this, that much is obvious.

"We don't have to talk about it anymore," Luke offers. "But I would like you to tell me what you're going to do."

[tetractys]

"NO, I MEAN, IT'S NOT YOU, IT'S - STILL FEELING BAD! WHY CAN'T I JUST FEEL BAD BRIEFLY, SAY I GET IT, AND THEN WE'RE DONE! IT DOESN'T HAVE TO DRAG OUT!"

What IS he going to do?

"I DON'T HAVE ANY IDEA. GOING TO TALK TO FORD, PROBABLY, SEE WHAT HE WANTS TO DO. THEN FIGURE OUT WHAT THE HECK I'M GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE."

Gross

[neverjoinyou]

Because that's how feelings work, Bill. They're like a virus.

"You don't need to figure it all out today," he suggests. "Maybe... one step at a time. Go talk to Ford."