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We've been training. Sometimes it's hard to divide it up neatly like that--there are things I have to consciously try to do but reaction and reflexes, it becomes second nature. Impressive or not, vengeance can be a slippery slope.

Well... I guess I better not get killed again.

It's a start.

I probably didn't really have to say anything. But I thought you should know, in case it wasn't clear. How much influence you have over her.

[He sighs.] I get the feeling it ain't the influence she's looking for, though. I keep putting my foot in it.

Are you me?

[There's been a lot going on the last few days, and Rey knows it's probably too much, all things considered. She also knows she needs to be better about keeping up with people she cares about, to force herself into the habit of checking in on them, so here she goes.]

I'm here for you if you need to talk.

[This means a lot to him. You have no idea, Rey. Unless you're checking in via the Force, and then you might.]

I don't know what I'd say. Where would I start.

I know how you feel.

[Telling people about their futures never makes sense.]

Still, if you need anything you know where to find me.

Have you...

Have you spoken to any of them?

Not much. I wanted to stay with Poe and BB-8.

[And Tommy, and to keep out of this clusterfuck as much as possible.]

[Oh. Of course, she'd want nothing to do with his family--the track record isn't too great.]

Yeah. I guess that's best.

[Except that's not what she meant.]

I wanted to give you time to talk to your sister and explain things first. I doubt she'll show up drunk at my door like Han did, but it's easier from someone she knows than someone who knows her in the future.

Thank you. I did want her to hear it from me. When she's from, she doesn't even know she's my sister. Let alone all the rest.

I'm supposed to be here to help people, Rey. Not navigate my family tree.

All you have to do is give her the information you have. It's up to her to decide what to do with it and I don't know her well but she's got a strong will, she'll figure out what to do and stand by your side. It's weird and none of it makes sense, but it'll be okay.

you know my father's here

Yes. But not as an inmate.

No.

How do you feel about that?

I feel like I don't know him. I never met him and only know about him because I saw him in Kylo Ren's memories. How do you feel about it?

I watched him die, Rey. But aside from that, he's the father I never knew. I want to know him. But he's also the villain in what people like to think of as our lives.

I don't really know what that's going to mean for him, here.

Kylo Ren got a warden that didn't take his lightsaber away from him after he killed two people. He hadn't read his folder after they were permanently assigned because he didn't think it was FAIR. More people than you expect will be willing to give your father a second chance. And don't worry about what people think, here. They get it wrong a lot of the time and their opinions shouldn't outweigh what you know to be true.

Thanks, Rey. I needed to hear that, I think.

It was what I needed to hear when everyone thought I was going to be demoted for what happened with Bull. I can't claim it as my own advice.

All the same, thank you. I was afraid everyone would be against me on this one.

Then I'll tell you what Tommy and Alfie told me: Fuck them.

People have seen what he's done. To me, to others. Accepting him as a warden will be hard, and I'm not sure if I can blame them exactly.

This doesn't change my behavior or my convictions. I don't need to be told not to be swayed. I'm just telling you how I am feeling.

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